Debbie-Dawn Downer

Today was a tough day. I felt awful, like many of the days in the past year. Just wanted to sleep. And I did. And as the hours have gone by I am in more and more pain from the Trapeze. My ribs, my shoulders, my boobs, pretty much my entire torso is hurting. That and my weight is back up. WTH!!!!!
The pain that I deal with thanks to the Fibromyalgia or whatever, is not the issue. It is the fatigue. It is bone deep. I don't even know how to describe it. When it is at its peak, I lay down and it feels as if the bed is a magnet and I am a big piece of metal. It is depressing, it is frustrating for not just me but my family. The dogs love it! With the Foster puppy I was outnumbered on the bed today three to one. We won't tell Scott which dog slept on his pillow.
The fatigue is my biggest enemy in this battle. I know it would be easier if I weighed less, I know it would be better if I was in better shape. But how do you get there when you can't move and food makes you feel better? I found out about pretzel m-n-m's tonight at Tamese's house. I learned today on weight watchers I need to just pretend you don't have the activity points or the weekly bonus points. That is what let me start eating the evil round objects. Once I started I couldn't stop. So Friday is the end of my weightwatchers week. So I guess I start again tomorrow.
I am feeling pretty darn low. Sorry no funny observations today.
But stay tuned, my friend, Sara, is going to go to Hot yoga with me Saturday. Pay back for the Trapeze! I think she is going to see if I am being a big baby or exaggerating the entire experience. I am looking forward to having my opinions confirmed! I will let you know what she has to say, if she can speak while she is puking!

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