Catching up with Dawn...

Again Thank you to everyone that has given me words of encouragement in person, on Facebook, and via text. Truly I think that has been the key on this journey. For example, yesterday I was really tired. I went to an event at my son's school and a fellow mom (Linda), told me that she enjoyed the blog. She asked if I was going to yoga. I said yes at 2:30. When I got home I laid down and wanted to fall asleep. But I knew I had told Linda I was going so I hauled my big butt up and out. It was probably the best I have done as far as flexibility! Thank You Linda!

So yesterday was lucky number seven yoga in ten days. It was so hard to get there. The thing I really tried to work on was calming my mind. Like many moms I am always thinking. The problem is that it isn't just the grocery list or what I have to do or who I have to pick up at what time. Although that information is taking up brain hard drive space, it is really the mind racing I have a problem with. It is important in the yoga to stay focused and "in the moment" so they say. But I just can't seem to calm my mind. For example, here is some of the thoughts that were in my mind during Tuesday's class, besides "this must be what the face of the sun feels like"
#1 - I found it very fascinating that a bead of sweat could start at the base of my neck, somehow dodge the bra strap and land directly down my butt crack. After that happen, I tried to make it happen several more times like a Plinko game.
#2 - It was an extra hot class. I think I began hallucinating. At one point the scene in Dumbo with the pink elephants was playing on a reel in my mind. I was singing the song in my head. This lead to thinking about how on my 21st birthday I had a pink elephant cake...then wow that was a great party...who all was there....gee I wonder how much I drank that night
#3 - I was wearing a red tshirt and my shorts. The instructor asked us to really focus on ourselves in the mirror. I had put on a sports bra from my brief running phase. I noticed that it pushed down along the hem and the shorts pushed up creating a perfect "spare tire". As we twisted side to side this made me think of that wedding scene in Steel Magnolias where Olympia D. says "It looks like two pigs fighting under a blanket". Never really got that. Now looking in the mirror, I get it. two pigs were fighting under my shirt. OMG, I think, look at that....which leads to wow that was such a good movie, Shelby should not have had that baby, that was really dumb for her to do that and how sad was it when she died, and wow wasn't that short hair wig that Julia Roberts wore awful, what the heck, did they spend all their money on the actresses and had nothing for props, and man was that a bad look with the glasses for Darryl Hannah, whatever happen to her...... I think you get the picture.
This is not unusual for me. Do you think this is normal? Probably not. ADD runs in one side of my family. I know their our probably meds for this but how hard can it be to calm your mind. For me, so far impossible.
So on Wednesday I had a plan. If I can't calm my mind or trip it up a bit, then I need to at least try to "stay in the room". My body is trapped in the room from hell, why should my mind get to take a vacation. So I decided to focus on the people in the class without staring, cause that might be creepy. So here are some of the cast of characters.
"Yoga Barbie" - Petite, wearing tiny booty shorts and a top that was backless but hooked around the shoulders and looked like a bikini in the front, fascinating top, Boobs clearly not from scratch because when laying on her back they were in their own full posture. Spray tan, hair in a perfect french twist at the start of the class and the END of the class. Sweat actually enhanced her attractiveness. Very flexible.
"The Groaner" - tall lanky, hair started off straight but every time I looked at her it was curlier and frizzier and bigger coming out of its pony, the humidity was brutal on her hair. Each time I glanced up it was frightening. She was quite noisy.

You get the idea. I am hoping by trying to focus on the people around me eventually I can focus on myself. Do you think it will work?