As I sit here in my Mom Cave, sipping my Hot Cocoa with Baileys in honor of St. Patrick's Day (not sure what I am celebrating the other nights, but tonight I have an excuse) contemplating what exactly St. Patrick's Day is and darn I decorated but I forgot to put green food color in the toilet, not sure the 8 year old will still buy that leprechauns don't flush; I am glad to know that this is getting read. I know it is getting read because my daughter came home tonight wanting to know why in the world I would blog about her thing for going naked at home and that I told her what a BJ was. I got a big "Thanks Mom for the Blog". One of my friends evidently read it to one of her friends, who then mentioned at school about her and the naked thing. Maybe this friend thanks to me now knows what a BJ is versus a VJ. Granted she was not upset enough to let it stop her and her friend from going skinny dipping in the hot tub about an hour ago (no school tomorrow, so sleepover night)
I had lunch with my oldest (not in age, that honor I think is Nancy's or maybe it is Stacy) friend today. We got caught up and discussed life. Her love is a military man and he is being deployed for a year. My heart aches for her, to have found love again only to have to go without it for a year, kind of sucks. Makes me think that as long as he was completely safe, I would not mind shipping my spouse off for a year. I think marriages would be a lot stronger if it was required to take a break say every 20 years. Right? Nothing dangerous like protecting our country, but just a required time out. It would not have to be for a year, that would be to cruel to the kids. But maybe a week off from each other once a year? Now if we could invent a way this could be done without one of us actually leaving the kids or home that would be super nifty. Like the spouse became invisible to each other. That way you are not a single parent and if there is a spider in the house someone is still here to kill it. Now granted, I think we have pretended that the other was invisible many many times, but I am talking about a way to take a break without actually fighting first.
Last week I went to my friend's parents house on the Beach in Hood Canal. I was totally alone for 48 hours. I have never been alone I realized for that long my entire life. I went from home at 18 to a sorority in college to living with my husband. Quite a revelation at 40.
I didn't even see another person on the beach or in any neighboring homes during this two days of bliss. I read, I watched Glee dvds, took many bubble baths, danced, sang outloud, did yoga, and the first 24 hours all I ate was Cake. It was a really amazing experiment. Could I enjoy my own company? You know what? That does not come naturally. I think I need another 48 hours there to continue the experiment. Because I am pretty certain it took me at least the first day to feel less guilty for taking the time in the first place. It helped that my cell phone did not work well and there was no internet.
So what did I learn during my "me-cation" about myself:
- I want a job where I don't have to wear a bra
- I want a job where I can wear pajamas during the day
- If I try to do yoga on my own, I only make it thru about 4 of the 26 poses before I get bored
- I might have ADD
- The thoughts in my head are really noisy
- Bailey's and Diet Coke don't work
- I am a water person, I love being near water, my blood pressure is lower when I am
- I am an Aquarius
- I can listen to the same playlist over and over and not get bored
- Maybe I don't have ADD
- When you can sleep in, you won't
- The formula for all romance novels is exactly the same, which did not stop me from reading five
- Is it okay to lust after a character on a movie or tv show that is under age if you know that the actor playing that character is legal?
- I can't change other people or make them behave the way I want, even if I am certain my way is better
- I may be a tad self centered
- I have more ideas for activities and goals than I will ever have time in my life for
- I can sit still for a long time
- I do enjoy peace and quiet
- I am not a drama queen
- I like to make people laugh, I like funny things
- I don't want to be fat anymore
- I would never make it on Survivor because I have to shower every day to feel normal
- I am ready to change careers, I want to work for AHA more than I have ever wanted anything, which probably means after my luck this past two years it won't happen
- I might be a pessimist
- Nope, I am an optimist, I still shave my legs every day
I think I need more time like this to work on my list and practice being friends with myself.
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