Okay, I know I have been too quiet. I have fallen off the Go Dawn Team Horse. Diet is not going well, exercise is mediocre and mood is borderline mental. So I am thinking that if I analyze the past 2 and a half months, there seems to be a correlation with diet success and mood and health when I am blogging daily. Hmmmm...accountability? Or I just like to brag when I am doing well? I don't know. But we shall test the theory. So everyone that is supporting my team needs to know that I am failing miserably at the weight loss goal. So there, it is out there. And I did not have to go on King 5 news to say it. (still not happy about that one)
Work wise, still a stressful, hopeless situation on the Banking front. Poor Scott is working his butt off. His job is like banging ones head against a brick wall for eight hours every day. No wonder he asks me to stop at the liqueur store.
I am still in the hiring process for my dream job with the American Heart Association. I have made it to round two of three. I am now waiting to hear if I make it on to round three. If I don't I am not sure what I will do. Never in my entire adult life have I not gotten the job I wanted. Never have I wanted one as badly as I want this one. So not sure if when looking back on my "luck" meters this past two years if this is looking hopeful!
I am still working with the Go Red Passions Committee. I also joined a Committee working to encourage Community Teams for the Heart Walk this fall. So I will be creating a team, with a fancy name and our own tshirts, who is in?
I am volunteering at the Heart Ball on the 26th, which really means I have to find something semi formal in all black to squeeze my fat butt into before than. Warm up them Spanks.
So let's review; Diet: Sucks, blowing it, hate it, I suck, no willpower. I have not been tracking my ww points. Today I had burgermaster but let me point out I ordered the mini kids meal instead of the big one. so that is a start? right? But I have also done some ambien eating. I am sleeping a lot during the day this past week fighting a weird virus/flu and trying to get blood pressure meds right. So I take an ambien at night to try to get back on track, then if I don't go to sleep I eat.
Exercise: No Hot Yoga - my excuses....I hurt my hip, had an xray and there is a bone spur caused by wear and tear (code for you are forty now honey) and clearly a ligament pull or tear. But again thanks to the nifty pacemaker I can't get a clear diagnosis without an MRI which I can't have unless I want to see the thing pulled out of my chest by the giant magnet. The other reason I have not been hot yoga, is that with the pending job situation not sure when I will be able to go when I am working in Seattle? So do I want to commit to the membership and the pain it causes the hip. I am starting physical therapy as soon as I get around to making an appointment. Do we see a theme here of procrastination and denial?
But I have been a regular at Golds gym thanks to my dance mommy friends. At least twice a week I have been doing Body Pump and once or twice Shbam which is kind of like a self esteem killer like Zumba. It should be called "so you think you can dance, not"
I had a couple of doctor visits. My vitamin D is deficient again which can cause fatigue and aggravate the Fibromyalgia issues. Duh, it is the middle of winter in Seattle. So got a prescription for that. While I was there I mentioned that I had read an article about them changing the bmi requirements for lap band surgery and that if you meet the new lower number and have a health condition (yeah me) insurance may even pay for it. What I thought she would say (keep in mind she has known me since I was 16 and knows I am a drama queen and looking for reassurance constantly) "no you are too skinny for that". What she actually said was "Oh that is a great idea, you should consider that".
So overall I have the debbie downer thing going on right now.
It is such a fiscious cycle. When I was interviewed on the news I gave the advice that we just keep going and have as many day ones as we need to get the job done. So looks like tomorrow is another day one for me.
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